Saturday, October 10, 2009

18岁的这一年

从没想过他会离开,一直以来都以为他不能没有我,
当他真的离开后,才发现,原来自己才是不能失去他的,
以前一直闹脾气,耍任性,认为自己做的一切都是对的,
当他真的离开后,才发现,原来自己一直以来都做错了,
有多么的不舍,一直打给他,一直发信息给他,他却消失了,
有多么的心疼,找机会挽留,试了好多方法,
不停打给他,不停发信息给他向他道歉,
不停的找他的好友,求他帮忙,
“ 是你的就是你的,不是你的就不会是你的,爱他就放他走吧 ” 得到这样的答案,心里是这么的痛,
我爱他,但决不能放他走,
所以不停的发信息给他的朋友,求他们帮忙,
以为这样能打动他的心,但没有,
我再找回他的好友,打给他,却被他狠狠地骂了一顿,
“ 他不接你电话,你怎么打也没有用,他要接的话就会接,不接就是不接,你以为到处找人帮忙,他就会接吗?”
含着泪,说“对不起”,盖了电话,
哭了好久,发现自己错的很多,
他真的走了,就真的离开了,以为一直挽留,能打动他,但错了,这样只是为难他的朋友,让他觉得我好烦,让他对我反感,
我们真的结束了,我什么也不能做了,是多么的不舍,
从没想过会有这么的一天。

以前,朋友问我,相隔将远,能在一起吗?
总是很有信心的回答,当然,而且会永远在一起,他不会离开我的,
觉得他一定不能没有我,所以每次发脾气,要他哄我,
但这一天,他没哄回我了,是多么的后悔,
失去了才懂得珍惜,真的太迟了,是多么的笨,

现在真的好伤心,好难过,是自作自受,
时间能疗伤吗?

811天,在一起了811天,多么难忘的回忆,
两年前为他开了一个blog,写了第一篇文章,
今天在这里,为他写的最后一篇文章。
抱着期望,他会回来吗?

18岁的这一年,做了一件会让自己遗憾一辈子的事。

Saturday, October 3, 2009

my new life

^^ .....

I'M REALLY TIRE OF BEING YOUR GF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WTF!!!!!!!!

AM I WRONG ?!!!

I'M JUST AN IDIOT !!

I TREAT YOU AS MY EVERYTHING !!

HOW DID YOU TREAT ME?!!!!!

I'M JUST NOTHING AT ALL!!!


ENOUGE !

I DON'T WANT TO BE IDIOT ANYMORE!!!!!!

NO MORE!!

FUCK !

Friday, October 2, 2009

smile ..

最初的发型,最初的样貌,最初的微笑

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

29 Sept

在那一瞬间,

手很痛,刺下去,

不明液体注射进身体,

手开始麻痹,累了...

灯亮了,五盏灯亮起,

呼吸似乎很困难,

很快的,眼前漆黑一片..

听到说话声,

听到自己心跳声,跳的很快..





一切都过去了,

醒了,痛 ...

很累 ....





现在,

痛着,

定要乖乖休息 ...

Monday, September 28, 2009

.....

笑声影子里隐藏着悲伤,又有谁能了解?
原来,最爱自己的是自己...



























今天,

阳光很耀眼,心却滴着雨.........





Thursday, September 24, 2009

Utar Block G

dear.. look at my U. ..
This is a new block. Block G ..
There is a huge lake.. nice, right??
Look like sea..

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

YEAH!

FINALLY!!!!
Today!! Finished my exam for first trimester.. ^^ yeah

LOOK AT MY ROOM"S WALL !!

Monday, September 21, 2009

3 more nights !!!

yeah!!!! 3 more nights!!
Then, can sleep on my lovely twin bed !!!
Don't need to sleep on this SAMLL bed!!! $%##%*$ !!
YEA!! COUNTDOWN !!

WHAT A BORED!!!!!!!!!!!! $%#*#$@*%$

1201 G/3

1201 G/3 .. yeah. this is my rental room.. .
First of all... this is my room... that love love is my bed and that blue blue belongs to my room-mate, Jane..
That study table is mine.. i know, very neat and tiny.. ^^
(only for that day.. >.<) Look clearly and carefully, there is a pair of slipper under da table, belong to me..
SEE!! so CUTE nehx?? what is the cartoon on the slipper??
COW!! COW!!! COW!! right?
However, someone said that it is pig .. $%#%#&&*# !!!
Who is that person?! A Xiao Xiao Zhi! blek...
Next, our wardrobe..Da wardrobe which is hanging the blue tower on it belongs to Jane.
Beside da wardrobe is Jane's study table.
The other wardrobe belongs to me.

It seem quite big but it is not big enough to put my stuff!! >.< .

I miss my house, my room... >.< . Today, a bored day... haiz.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Monday, September 14, 2009

For my dear pisces boy.

给属于瑞慈的双鱼座男孩:

喜欢牵着你的手,

喜欢挽着你的手,
喜欢让你抚摸着,
喜欢吻你,
喜欢抱着你,
喜欢依偎在你怀里,
喜欢让你搂着我的腰,
喜欢让你的手搭在我肩上,
喜欢靠着你,
喜欢等着你来接我,
喜欢和你躺在地上看星星,
喜欢和你一起走路,
喜欢和你一起搭MRT,
喜欢和你逛街,
喜欢和你搭电梯,
喜欢和你拍照照,
喜欢看电影时靠在你肩膀,
喜欢和你一起转Mantose,
喜欢和你一起吃豆花,
喜欢和你一起吃章鱼烧,
喜欢和你一起吃薯条,
喜欢将我的番茄汁和你辣椒汁放在一起,
喜欢和你一起吃巧克力,
喜欢你帮我切鱼扒,
喜欢你喂我吃东西,
喜欢和你一起喝我爱的柠檬茶,
喜欢陪你去喝starbuck,
喜欢和你一起喝泡泡茶,
喜欢和你一起吃雪糕,
喜欢和你一起抱瑞瑞,
喜欢看你打鼓,
喜欢和你一起去看小狗,
喜欢和你坐在楼下的公园,
喜欢和你去楼梯间,
喜欢你帮我擦眼泪.

好多喜欢的事情, 却很少机会可以做.

想和你去看海豚,
想和你去海边散步,
想和你一起捡贝壳,
想和你去海底世界,
想和你一起看流星,
想和你去看日出,
想和你去看日落,
想和你当天过情人节,
想和你做情人节蛋糕,
想陪你当天过你的生日,
想你陪我当天过我的生日,
想和你过圣诞节,
想和你再一起去旅行,
想去看看你的学校,
想去见见你学校的朋友,
想去见见你的家人,
想和你去那个桥,
想看你band的演出,
想带你看看我的学校,
想带你在湖边散步,
想和你XX.

好多想做的事情, 你都还没陪我做.

怎么可以就将去澳洲?

怎么可以就将丢下我一人在这里?


希望依旧每天能听你的声音,
希望依旧每天能和你聊天,
希望依旧每天能睡前听你说故事,
希望你还是会哄我,
希望你还是会疼我,
希望你依旧每天能陪我入睡.

希望现在你..... 能.. 帮我擦掉眼泪...

爱哭,爱撒娇,爱乱发脾气,爱无理取闹,任性,属于子焜的巨蟹座女孩....

Sunday, September 6, 2009

dear..

dear..

I don't like to study..


Do you know that?

I miss you much..

T_T

dislike the final exam...

sure will be suck .. T_T

I don't want to stay apart from you anymore !!!

But I can't do anything, how?!!

Am I useless?!!

YES!!!!!! T_T ...

headache .. T_T

若我们注定要分割两地,那为何老天爷要让我们相遇?

我昨晚做恶梦,

真的不想让你越走越远,

不要去好不好?

到底是为了什么而活着?

到底还会不会有未来?

我厌倦了......

Monday, August 31, 2009

Finally, completed!!

Finally, completed my time table ..

Keep trying to help my friend now, but can't.. haizz..

The line is suck again.. =.=''

SxxK registration

=.=''

woke up at 7.45am..

WHY?!!

For course registration!
(we need to register our timetable for next trimester ourselves through online course registration. Started from 8am, 31 August)

However, already try to login about 1 hour, the network still traffic!

What a BAD idea!!! About 1000 students need to register at the same time!!
The line sure will be suck!

haiz.. What a BORE!!

sleepy ..

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Shall I ?

" YOU SHALL REGRET IT FOREVER "


Shall I ??

Saturday, August 29, 2009

......

Sometimes, felt weary in mind.
You didn't know what I need, and I didn't know what were you thinking.

You said that you love me, didn't you??

I hate to hear your sound now, I have nothing can say to you.
Give me a breather..

A boring day

Opened my eye, stared at the ceiling.
Knew that a boring day was going to start.....

Raining now and I'm in my room.
Sitting on my bed, looking at the screen, thinking of my exam.
Going to do my revision but feel like moody to do it.

haiz.. what can I do now instead of do revision?

NOTHING can do! Must be prepared for my final exam!!!!!!!!

haizz... What a bore!

Friday, August 28, 2009

What's a suck day?

Last night, a suck day!
FxxK off those bitch!!!
Kept making noises till so late!!
What is "RESPECT" ???
Furthermore, this is my hostel!!!!!!!!
Exam is coming soon, if you think that you are clever enough to score all A, then you can keep enjoying!!!
Please don't disturb others who want to do revision!!
Headache and stomach pain last nigh, wanted to have a better sleep but those fxxker kept making noises till midnight!!!!
What's the fxxk!

That time, I were so upset and angry!!
I just wanted someone to care of me?!

Were I wrong?????!!!
Don't always say that I didn't care of you!!! Do you?!!
Don't tell me that you are in pressure or what, me TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
Don't tell me that you are facing final exam or what, me TOO!!!!!!!
You knew that I were having headache and stomach pain last night, didn't you?!!
You knew that I were waiting for your call, didn't you?!!!
Last night, I just hoped that you would call me soon and care of me..
However, you just made me feel disappoint!
I HATE liar!!!!
Don't simply tell me that you love me if you did not care of me!!!!!!!